Date:	2005-05-26 16:20
Subject:	Meme-type thing.
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	System of a Down - "BYOB"

Alright, let's see how much you all really know about me...
Stolen from Kei (as usual)

( Check this one out )

These are so bizarre...

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Date:	2005-02-17 19:27
Subject:	Lots on my mind
Security:	Public
Mood:	exhausted
Music:	Staind - "It's Been A While"

Funny how you can love someone so much that even through the roughest times, nothing phases you. To me that's the kind of love that's true and everlasting. I'm glad I have that. God I've had so much to think about lately. Just one of those things that knocks you on your ass and takes you a while to gather your senses and see things objectively. Through all this, I constantly maintained the attitude that nobody said life was easy. Well, I think my life just got a lot harder. Not worse, but harder. It's worth it though. Tiphannie's worth it, our future is worth it. I've been at a crossroads and I sure hope I'm taking the right path. At least I think it's the right thing to do, even though I'm sure a lot of people would disagree. So I'm just hoping that everyone will be supportive and understanding. We'll see. Well I've gotta go, so until next time...

Date:	2005-01-19 14:40
Subject:	Interesting
Security:	Public
Mood:	sore
Music:	Chevelle - "Vitamin R"

What sign of the Zodiac am I? Cancer 60 % Aries 60 % Taurus 53 % Pisces 46 % Gemini 46 % Libra 46 % Sagittarius 46 % Capricorn 40 % Scorpio 40 % Virgo 40 % Aquarius 26 % Leo 26 % Take the Zodiac test here!

Heh, my real sign is halfway down the list (Sagittarius - Nov. 27). I really don't believe in astrology anyways. Just wondered what the results would be. *shrug*

Date:	2005-01-17 15:28
Subject:	So I've been thinking...
Security:	Public
Mood:	okay
Music:	BT - "Never Gonna Come Back Down"

I'm seeing a lot of these photo blogs on the net nowadays, so I was thinking I should start one. I mean, I carry my camera phone everywhere I go, and I do visit some interesting places from time to time, so why not, right? Well there ya go. I think I will. I'm glad that's settled.

On a random note, I saw a sign today that said "Free Jobs". Yes, free jobs everyone! So does that mean I get to apply for free? Or that I get to work for free? I dunno but if it's free, count me in!

Speaking of jobs, I've been thinking about getting a weekend job to pay for Tiph's oral surgery and to help get me to Oklahoma. A few hundred extra bucks a month sure wouldn't hurt. The only thing is, I don't want to do physical labor cuz I do enough of that 5 days a week. I need at least 2 to recover. So I'm not quite sure where that could be, but I'm gonna start looking around. Possibly computer work if I can find it (not likely) but more likely something in retail. I might check out the malls this weekend if I have time. Anyways, I'm outta here. Late.

Date:	2005-01-17 15:24
Subject:	Heh...
Security:	Public
Mood:	okay
Music:	Dirty Vegas - "Days Go By"

you are the "you're so dumb" happy bunny.
you are brutal in your words and enjoy putting
others down.


which happy bunny are you?
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Stolen from Tiphannie. Thanks hun lol.

Date:	2005-01-15 22:23
Subject:	Hey now!
Security:	Public
Mood:	exhausted
Music:	Bad Religion - "Sorrow"

Lol Tiph says I write about her too much in my journal. Well shit, I looked back at my old posts and she's right. As usual lol. Yeah well maybe I do write about her a lot. Hell, I'm writing about her now. I dunno, I guess it's cuz she's a big part of my life. A really big part. What can I say?

Yeah so anyways Tiphannie convinced me to rent Love Actually and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I watched Love Actually tonight (per her request, of course =P). Lol. She says the little boy, Sam, reminds her of my brother, Bryan. So I thought "Okay, we'll see about that." And sure as shit, he looks EXACTLY like him, except my brother has blonde hair, and acted like him too. But yeah, that was soooo weird. Funny though. But yeah I thought it was a really good movie. I love the concept. The relationships between groups of people that are loosely related to one another, each being an example of a different type of love, whether it be faiing into it, out of it, lust, the extent we will go for the ones we love, and the pain and suffering and sacrifice. It was definitely a well-rounded movie that everyone can relate to. It made me think about my own relationship, from both a subjective and objective viewpoint, which made me realize just how much I really do love Tiph and by the end made me hurt inside because I'm not with her right now. I just don't know what to say anymore. It's awful. There's no other way to put it. It sucks, bites, blows, however you wanna say it, it does. I just can't help but think I'm meant to be with her, after all we've been through, and in the end no matter what happens, I still love her, still care about her, and still want to be with her. That, to me, is enough proof.

Well, my car officialy has no engine. My dad and I took it out today. Tomorrow we're gonna swap out all the missing components on the new engine, install a new starter, change the spark plugs, timing belt, and oil. Fun times -_-; I'd probably be having a lot more fun if I was swapping the engine out for a 1JZ, but just the thought that after ALL this work it's gonna run exactly the same as it did before, that just isn't very exciting, y'know?

Anyways, I've got to get some sleep if I'm gonna get an early start on my car in the morning. So until next time. Late.

Date:	2005-01-02 00:28
Subject:	The meme to end all memes!
Security:	Public
Mood:	lonely
Music:	Green Day - "Boulevard of Broken Dreams"

God I love these things. This one is... pretty long. ( Take a peek if you dare. )

Date:	2004-12-30 17:14
Subject:	2004 is no more
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	Modest Mouse - "Ocean Breathes Salty"

Here's an end o' the year meme. ( Check it out. )

It's been a while since I've posted one of these, so...


1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

Date:	2004-12-27 17:27
Subject:	Ugh =/
Security:	Public
Mood:	crappy

I always feel terrible when she's in a bad mood. Especially when I have something to do with it. My last post... I guess she misinterpreted my purpose. I had no bad intentions when I posted that. It was supposed to represent how much it hurts for me to watch her deal with certain issues because of how much I care about her, and how I can't do anything about it because I'm so far away. She can't control the way she feels.

I miss her SO much. Everything about her. The good and the bad. It's what makes her, and everyone else in this world, unique. I hope she knows that I love her as a whole, not just certain things. I don't mean that I love the bad things that happen to her, but I do love how she deals with them. She's so strong. She rarely comes to me for anything, and I know when she does, it eats at her inside because she feels like she should be able to do it herself. She's just the type that hates asking for anything. But that's okay, because it only proves to me how strong willed she is. Besides all that, I love all the good things about her. Her smile and laugh, the way she carries and presents herself (so elegant and professional, yet so feminine and kind), even the way she does that thing where she touches her fingernail to her teeth. I think about her constantly. I hear her in the back of my mind and it helps me get through the day.

One of the other reasons why she's upset is because she lost her camera. That SUCKS. Mostly because it seems like the only logical explination is that someone stole it from her purse. I can't believe anyone would do that. How can people like that live with themselves? Anyway... The last time she saw it was when she uploaded some pictures last week, but she doesn't remember what she did with it. She assumes that she put it back in her purse. It isn't anywhere in her room, or in her pants, or jacket, or anywhere for that matter. It's as good as gone. =/ I suppose it's alright though, because the viewfinder on that one was screwed up, and I promised her I'll buy her another one.

Alright well I'm gonna get off here. Tired from work. Gonna lay down for a bit. And wait for her to come online. I'm out.

Date:	2004-12-25 22:56
Subject:	Christmas...
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad
Music:	Modest Mouse - "This Devil's Workday"

I've had a so-so Christmas this year. Everything was great, got a lot of cool stuff from a lot of people, etc. but I was pretty sad too. No matter how much time I spend with my family, I felt so incredibly alone. I missed Tiph a LOT today. Not only because I wish I could be with her, but because I know she's hurting today. It's been so hard for her, being without him, not having any money, and me being 1500 miles away. She handles it so well. I know she's dying inside but she won't show it. I truly admire that about her. She's so strong. God I miss her...

Just... overall this holiday season has been so blah. Things will look up once I'm in Oklahoma. That's the first step towards a happy future for not only me but Tiph too. Just to have someone there when she's getting those feelings will make her feel better, I know. I mean, it's not like she doesn't have any friends there she can confide in, but she knows that I care about her. More than anyone else in the world. And I'd like to believe that she takes comfort in that security from time to time. The security that she knows that she can tell me anything in the world, even things that might hurt my feelings, and that not only will I be there to listen but that it won't change how much I love her or care about her or try and support her emotionally. I try to be that for her. I really do. Sometimes it's hard but I just grin and bear it and give her a smile and a kiss on the forehead and just hold her. Then I remember why I'm there. Why she means so much to me. Everything else just fades away... Lol I'm making myself cry. *sigh*

Heh... She's calling now... Heh, she's having problems with her webcam. Gotta go help her. I'm out.

Date:	2004-12-23 17:44
Subject:	Ugh
Security:	Public
Mood:	exhausted
Music:	The Chemical Brothers - "Out of Control"

Crap, I'm tired. I really need to quit staying up so late talking to Tiph. It's just so hard to stop, y'know? I just can't hang up, cuz once I do, I suddenly feel alone. And I hate that feeling. I can't wait till I move there so I don't have to worry about that anymore. It's just that with the way things are right now, we don't spend enough time together. Talking on the phone for 3 or 4 hours a day doesn't compare to being together for even 10 minutes. I miss her so much. But I keep telling myself that it's just a matter of time. And it is.

Work was pretty easy today. Did a start-up on 3 package units and interlocked the smoke detectors. Easy stuff. Couldn't start the heat though cuz they have medium pressure gas piped to the roof, but the units require low pressure. So the plumber needs to come back and install regulators for each unit. Aside from that, no problems, which is good because the last thing I need today is a problem.

Oh god, I just got a text message from T-mobile. They reviewed the problem with my bill. Well let's see what they have to say, aside from the fact that i got a $350 phone bill this month. Good, they credited back my account about $250 so now my bill is only $85. BUT she says this may happen again NEXT month too. This is absurd. I've tried to be patient and keep my calm with them in the past, but it's getting to the point of lunacy. All I want to know is why it wasn't fixed the first time. ???? No answer. I just hope they get it right this time. *sigh*

I need to go get stuff to wrap everyone's Christmas presents. Which means I have to go to Walmart. Which I do NOT want to do. Oh well.

Hmm I'm hungry. It's dinnertime so I guess I can go get something now. *thinks* A hamburger sounds pretty good right now. Wish Tiphannie was here so she could burn me one. Y'know, she never cooked for me? Dissapointing, huh? It's alright cuz I can cook, but I wish she'd at least try. It really wouldn't matter what it tasted like, it'd mean a lot to know that she made it for me. I guess Imperial Burger #2 will suffice for now. Fish tacos sound good too. *cough* What? Anywho... I'm out!

Okay everyone, it's time to start up a project, if you would be so kind to oblige?!

There is a brand new online store that I recently discovered which ironically happens to be owned by someone I know. He hasn't started any marketing for his new store yet, and I thought it would be interesting to see if all of us here at the good ol' land of LiveJournal could help to make an impact for his business with regard to getting it known to others. You know... basically so people will know it exists. A grassroots effort, if you will!

The Project and request I'm asking of you? Simply copy and paste this entire entry in YOUR journal along with the following link:

www.BankofSavings.com

Lets see if we can start something with this! Who knows? If this spreads like other things I've seen on LJ in the past, we all might help to become extremely important to the history of this store when it's all said and done!

www.BankofSavings.com

Date:	2004-12-21 19:48
Subject:	Contacts suck!
Security:	Public
Mood:	crappy
Music:	The Postal Service - "Clark Gable"

My eyes are kicking my ass. I've had this eye infection for 2 days now and I can't stand it! My best guess is that it's "giant papillary conjunctivitis" aka a really bad case of pinkeye aggrivated by contact lens wear. But whatever it is, it hurts like hell. It's not too bad when I'm at my computer or working, but it KILLS me when I'm driving. I was afraid I was gonna crash this morning cuz I had one eye closed and the other half open, barely. I've never had to pull off to the side of the road for anything like that before in my life. It was that painful. Well, it's a little better than that now. Hopefully tomorrow it won't be as bad.

I dunno why my mom even bothers to call me. She never has anything to say, and if she does it's always negative. Whether it's her work, my grandmother, her friends, my girlfriend, my friends... it's always someone or something. I wish she'd call with some good news for once. But no, her friend's mother is in the hospital with liver disease, my brother is sick, she's sick, my grandmother is a bitch and I'm stupid because I haven't already gone to the doctor about my eye. Yeah. Thanks a lot, I really appreciated that call.

No good news to report today. I just look at it as one day closer to moving to OK and being with Tiph. It'll be nice to get away from all this mess. It's gonna be stressful at first, but at the same time it'll be relieving a lot too, so it balances out. My biggest concern right now is what I'm going to do for work once I get there. Until I get my HVAC Journeyman's license, I can't work in commercial air conditioning. I'll either do residential A/C (which SUCKS) or some sort of unskilled full time position, like office work or retail. Whatever I do, I need to make $8-10, which wouldn't be a problem if I could get an A/C job BUT... When the time gets near for me to move, I'll start looking and applying for jobs. Well anyways, I'm gonna go grab some dinner. Till next time...

Date:	2004-12-20 14:53
Subject:	Wow, long time...
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	Papa Roach - "Last Resort"

Man, it's been a long time since I've posted in this thing. Tiph found it yesterday and she was talking about it so I figured I'd post an update.

Crap, I dunno where to begin. Um... Well, I went to Oklahoma for vacation last month. Tiph's birthday. I had an awesome time there. It's pretty much what I expected. A few hills, lots of trees, kinda has that small town feel. Well, in comparison to LA. Tiphannie's friends are REALLY cool. All of 'em. One guy James still calls me practically begging for me to move there, lol. I don't think he has anything to worry about. I'm looking forward to moving there. Everybody thinks I'm crazy when I say that it's better there than it is here, but it's true. I love it there. I love the people there. Especially one...

I really miss her. Oh my god, I miss her. I've written a lot about all the bad times, the fights, the harsh feelings, but that's all in the past. I really truly think she's the one person I can love for the rest of my life. It's to the point that I even dream about her EVERY night. Just knowing she's so far away makes me want to cry. I only hope she really knows how much she means to me. I'm pretty sure she has a good understanding. I know she loves me, I know how she feels. I see it. I see how she struggles with the harsh reality of life. And I wish I was there to comfort her. I wish a million times over that I could just look into her beautiful dark hazel eyes and tell her that it's okay and just hold her. If I only had that opportunity right now to hold her tight... I'd never let her go.

OH MY GOD! My eye is killing me! I accidentally left my contacts in last night and it irritated the shit out of my left eye. It's all red and burning. Feels like someone rubbed soap in my eye. ARGH. I'm glad I didn't go to work today. Yeah, I called in sick. =/ Stayed up till 3:30 talking to Tiph. I needed the rest anyways. This way I'm not too tired so I can go Christmas shopping this afternoon. If my eye gets better. I didn't want to wait this long, but I just couldn't afford it till I got my last paycheck. C'est la vie.

I went to JGTC Live yesterday. Holy shit those cars are fast! And the drifting was awesome! XDL had an exhibition run and D1 had their first USA vs. Japan competition. US still sucks compared to Japan. Except for guys like Rhys Millen, Ken Gushi, and Ernie Fixmer. And oh my GOD Tyler McQuarrie kicked ass in the Jasper Performance JZA80 Supra. I love that car. I don't care what anyone says, I think that's the best drift machine in the US. But I must admit, I didn't stay for the final. I left right before they started the Best 4, cuz I was too tired and couldn't wait around anymore. As soon as they stopped the race to clean up some spilled fluid on the track I was like "Well that's it for me tonight." That's the one thing I can't stand about D1 events. They make you wait soooo long between rounds, so it gets to the point that when something like that happens, you just don't have the patience for it. I think I'm gonna call their office in Irvine and tell them about it. Cuz I've been to 3 D1 events and they were ALL that way. It's absurd in my opinion. Anywho, that's enough bitching for now. I've gotta get going. I have work to do on Tiph's Avon site and Christmas shopping to do. So until next time...